New Job.

(FYI: I don't wanna say the name of my company in this post…because then my co-workers will get a Google Alert and then they will find my blog…
and I will be teased for the rest of forever about details in my life even more than I already am. Glad you understand.)

T is my new job and it is a dream. I don't even know how everything worked out so perfectly, but  it did. I know that this is exactly what I'm supposed to be doing right now, and that is a great feeling. I love my job. I love my co-workers. I believe in our product. We are growing rapidly. My salary is enough. My best friend recently started working with me, with another one in the process. I've gone on my first work-related business trip (hello utah), with plenty more to come. They work around my "mom" schedule. We work with amazing clients. Our new office has a ping pong table, a nap room, and co-worker yoga classes on wed from 3-4. And they love me.
How could it get any better?
It can't.
Everyday is a good day and I can't tell you how much of a difference this job has made in my life.

So what is T?
T is a social event discovery platform. It's a way to discover, share, promote, and create events happening all over the world. Companies list their events and users find those events. It's pretty simple and yet pretty complicated. But if you wanna know more about it…just ask. I started out as their PR and Social Media girl. After about a month and a few complications out of my control, I was switched to Client Relations Manager. I will probably help with PR in the future….just not at the moment. I seriously am so stoked about this job and have high hopes for what the future has in store for us. Download the app…it's free…and gets better everyday. 

Prayer.

If there's one thing I truly believe in it's the power of prayer. 

For a while I have been getting so frustrated with my life. Why is my perfect job all of a sudden starting to suck? We had a lot of unsuccessful campaigns. My supervisor got demoted. It was just not…good.  Why do I only find interest in guys that are out of state? And consequently don't work out mostly due to the distance? Why am I 27 and not even close to getting married? Why is Matix 5 years old and begging me for a sibling of his own? 

Why? Why? Why?

I'm trying so hard to do my best and be the best mom while also living a single life full of fun and friends and boys galore. Sometimes it's hard to find a balance. And to be honest, I really don't know what that balance should be. Do I focus on my career? Will that interfere with being able to be a good mom? Do I grow up and move out of my parents house? Do I decorate Matix's room the way i want it decorated even though that means buying a queen size bed comforter that most likely go to waste when he downgrades to a twin like most 5 year olds? What do I do with the ridiculous amount of money in my bank account? Is this boy the one that will finally work out? Am I ever going to freaking get married? Do I just need to live my life as if I am never going to get married? Is it a waste of money to move out? Can I do it on my own? These may seem ridiculous but they seriously cross my mind more than I'd like to admit.  I just wish I knew the answer to all of these questions and more.  

I find myself living in the "grass is greener" world all to often.

 I'll be better at this. I'll do better at this. It will be easier when my I becomes a we. 

I finally decided to move to Utah. I had friends begging me. And I couldn't shake the idea. I prayed to Heavenly Father and told him that if something didn't change I was going to move to Utah in January. Two weeks later (I kid you not) the job of my dreams was handed to me on a silver platter and I met a boy in Las Vegas (Henderson, but close enough) that is really cool and started taking me out on dates regularly. (This is the first guy I've dated in Vegas in almost 4 years. Gasp.)

Okay Heavenly Father. I get it. I'm supposed to be here…so I won't move. 

Thank you for the freaking blessings. I really do appreciate them and I will do better and expressing my gratitude for all of the amazing blessings you have given me.

Even though I've lived the single life a lot longer than I ever thought I would…I am grateful for it. I have had some of the most amazing opportunities because of it. I have gone to the most foreign of places because of it. Matix has a freaking rad life and is the coolest little human because of it. My list of best friends is growing out of control because of it. And I date some of the coolest guys in the world that I know have blessed my life just by getting to know them so well….because of it. 

Even though it's hard at times…I am grateful for this time in my life. I know that one day I will look back at my 20's with a smile. I have had some pretty good years and I know that things will only get better. Sure it would be nice to have some more answers. Really nice. But at least I have prayer to lead and guide me to where I'm supposed to be (obviously not Utah!). And that is a really cool thing.